Margot wants nothing more than to feel loved, but her husband, the author Ernst, makes her increasingly destructive with her narcissistic thinking. When Ernst, inspired by the poet Rilke, explains that she is only “one thing, a small human being” and that he can therefore not say that he loves her, she feels that she is divided. In her soul, Otter is born who forces her to constantly adapt to others because it is her only way to deal with her self-loathing.
As a new mother, Margot gets to know Ella who makes her think about her life and the subconscious suddenly appears in Margot’s thoughts and dreams. Eventually, some events cause her to be confronted with her past and after the divorce and moving from Gothenburg to an archipelago island, she is reunited with her sister, whom she has not met in several years.
In West Berlin, where the sister lives, Margot comes in contact with Ruth, who has been the girls’ foster mother for a few years. The women meet several times at café Möhring where Margot hears Ruth’s story.
Blue Girl, is a strong thought-provoking novel about uncovering the truth, insight and reconciliation. There is so much femininity in this book! … Male grief is described in a beautiful, but incredibly sad way. Men were not expected to mourn in the 40s and 50s, but the grief still has to be worked out in some way and Porss writes very strong and credibly about that.